so today, a friend asks me, “are you brave?”

and i think to myself, yeah… sometimes.

my mind is going crazy. i’m wondering what he’s referring to. is he talking about my tattoo? or my pictures? or what?

so i think to myself:

• i am go on a blind date brave.
• i am, wear a super mini dress brave.
• wear a t-shirt with no bra brave.
• i am, ok to go with the unpopular choice/make what is probably the worse choice in hopes that it builds character brave.

i’m not:

gambling, bungee jumping or roller coaster, or even get on a skate board brave.

so after a little while of brainstorming. i reply, "yeah, i’m brave… sometimes. why do you ask?”

and he goes, “because your website says for the brave”

so i go, OOOOOOOOh! that’s what you meant (the shoe site).

well. in that case… yeah, i am… sometimes. i mean, you have to be brave to wear the shoes on that site. and even i can’t wear some of those.

today has been a very interesting day so far.

last night was crazy so i ended up getting every bit of 25 minutes of sleep.

the drive to work was not too bad considering the fact that i was running 45 minutes late.

- yes, i had my ipod playing (house music)

- no, i did not want to listen to michael jackson music

got to work and noticed the horrible job i did at getting dressed this morning. i start to feel bad because i’m not looking my best today. i have on a long light sweater, some flat shoes, and my hair was all over the place. i swear i looked like i’d just gotten out of bed, and like i threw on some slippers and a robe.

found out this morning that i’d lost a love one. that always sucks. so i spent the better part of the morning dealing with my feelings and trying not to show my feelings at work.

i was tired and sick all day at work today. my stomach was cramping, my back was cramping, and my chest hurts like you wouldn’t believe.

the good thing is that today was an easy day at work. i assisted exactly 50 members today (it was kind of slow). got invited out to 1 date and got cursed out 0 times (not bad).

extreme fatigue started kicking in at 3 which made my drive home absolutely terrible.

- yes, i had my ipod playing (rock music).

- no, i did not want to listen to michael jackson music

drama is being very dramatic today.

i’m hungry but i don’t have the energy to fix myself anything to eat.

i would probably have energy if i had actually eaten something today.

i didn’t take any new pictures this weekend (sigh).

i don’t even know where my camera is right now.

the long weekend is over :(

one mile walk today

no, not that kind.

i’m getting my camera ready for the weekend.

i need some pictures to post for this month.

the 4th of july used to be a family day for me.

i really miss my grandfather today.

i remember when him and i used to ride his harley through the neighborhood around this time of year. i was never afraid to ride with him, but he didn’t take his bike out very often.

i would always convince him that we “needed” fireworks to shoot in our front yard, and he would always buy them for me.

and at the grocery store on the night before the 4th he would always tell me that i could get whatever i wanted for the grill knowing that i would always request my favorite, chicken wings cooked in his secret receipt bbq sauce.

i really miss him.

ps. i never did learn the secret receipt :(

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this is drama’s favorite song.

i swear it is.

he is so funny!!!!

to find the best of me.

best of me (christette michele)

Saw you again at the parlor
Crossing the walk with your lady
I caught your eye from afar oh
I know that she wore a ring
I found a smile against my will
Wish it was genuine
I put away my desire
No more "in love with you still"
Look I'm moving on, oh

Loved you, lost you
Thought I'd give you All the best of me
We departed
Broken hearted
I need to be free
What we had was Oh so lovely
I'll swallow my pain
Its my time to Find the best of me

Can't be the time to be begging
Can't be the time to plead
My momma made me much wiser
What's mine will be just for me
I'm trying hard just to focus
I'm trying hard to sleep
Promise I'm glad you're happy
When its my time it will be

Look I'm moving on, oh oh oh

Loved you, lost you
Thought I'd give you All the best of me
We departed
Broken hearted
I need to be free
What we had was Oh so lovely
I'll swallow my pain
Its my time to Find the best of me

Oh my why have I been just so foolish all this time
Not realizing the beauty that your eyes once saw in mine
I guess its time to find the best of me

Loved you, lost you
Thought I'd give you
All the best of me
We departed
Broken hearted
I need to be free
What we had was Oh so lovely
I'll swallow my pain
Its my time to
Find the best of me
Oh oh oh
The best of me

omg. last night was simply unbelievable.

not fun.

i don’t even want to talk about it here. i’ll tell you in person.

captain morgan spiced rum.

so i went to a captain morgan party this weekend. we all got dressed up as pirates and met and drank rum arrrrrrrrg!

no not really, but that would have been fun.

i’m a rum girl at heart. i love captain morgan. i’ve been wanting to try the new captain (tattoo) for some time now and i finally had the opportunity to do so. i also tried the 100 proof. here are my thoughts.

tattoo = i love it.

this rum is so dark it almost looks black. i had to try it. though i did not think i would like it, it turned out to be very good. it tastes really great with cola. to me it adds to the flavor of the cola which makes it really fun to drink. the only problem is that i can’t find it everywhere.

at one store the guy said that people are saying that people weren’t buying it because it’s too spicy???

100 proof = i like it.

it’s very smooth, which makes the drink very enjoyable. while i’d go for the tattoo over this one, this one to me tastes better than the original spiced rum.

i was warned when going in to buy this drink. “don’t drink this too fast.” if you’re going to mix it, you won’t taste it, and you’ll be two drinks too late before you realize it’s time to stop.

though i wouldn’t say you can’t taste it in cola (unless you make your drinks really weak), the smooth taste will definitely allow someone the opp to have 1-2 drinks too many.

i hope that you have fun plans for the weekend.

i am about to go grab some books.

i’m going to get some rest so that i can do some jogging on saturday and sunday.

and i’m going to take jr out this weekend. i wanted to go to the aquarium this weekend, but the weather is going to be way nice, so we might do something else.

today was not a good day as far as work is concerned.

between being exhausted and having a lot on my mind i just felt drained all day.

i didn’t help that rush hour traffic completely sucked ass today.

woosah! i’m about to go to bed.

(maybe)

i was reading the teaser (on amazon) of this book today between calls.

hilarious!

$2.59 in severn, md tonight.

i have my maxx again *big smile*

i missed my maxx so much.

omg. went to the mva today.

this trip itself was not too bad (i was able to get in and out), but i am a little upset now. don’t want to explain the full details here.